BS/ me 50 WW/ 45 Dday1 14/12/15 Dday2 27/02/16 divorce final october 1, 2016 "God gave us the gift of life; it is up to us to give ourselves the gift of living well." Voltaire

Seeing the years go by

Hi everyone. To be honest, I was here many years ago. I got to the point where I felt my reading the forums just dragged me back into the reality I was trying to move on from. That being said, there are some great people here and I am also happy that this is an anonymous forum. Hence this post.

I'm getting older, one friend last year had a triple bypass, another this week had the same with a valve replacement. I'm seeing the years go by and feel that I will be losing friends soon. It scares me. I never lived what many consider a healthy lifestyle. I don't fear death but I would like my life to continue. I guess it's fear of the inevitable, Sorry, this was a post to express my fear that I will start losing friends. You reach an age when it happens, hard to deal with, but a natural part of life.

10 comments posted: Thursday, February 2nd, 2023

4 year update

Hi everyone, hope you are all well. Wow time flies doesn't it? well it's just over 4 years since my divorce was final. Still single and to be honest happy that way. I tried the dating thing and it's just not for me. The games, the meat market atmosphere and so on, it's just not fun. I guess some of us enjoy the comfort of established relationships.

I had a few losses over the last few years, my younger sister passed from als in 2018 and my father passed last year just due to old age. I also found some blood family through dna as I was adopted, so I have a half sister and we continue to interact. I met my birth mother and that was not great so I have no contact with her. I guess a 54 year old secret is a tough one to swallow when it comes out.

So on the whole things are good, the losses are normal things that happen over the years, doesn't make them easy but I know they are in a better place.

Take care everyone, stay safe during this virus.

2 comments posted: Sunday, October 18th, 2020

been reading a good book

Hey all, I've been reading a good book lately which has had an influence on the way I look at life and myself. It's called awaken the Buddha within. Now I hope I haven't violated forum rules with this book as there is a mention of avoiding religious stuff. I feel safe as Buddhism is not in fact a religion but a philosophy of life. I don't plan on becoming a monk or anything, and that's what's nice about this book. You take what you want and leave the rest. It takes stuff and breaks it down to make it understandable for the times and world we live in. Again great book if you're looking at yourself and what makes you tick. At least for me anyway.

0 comment posted: Saturday, March 26th, 2016