Me - BS 59 Him - WS 59 AP - his "friend" (she was 24 when the A started, he was 52) M 34 yrs, together 39yrs. 2 adult offspring D-Day#1: 6-29-14 , Final DDay: 5-19-15 (too many others in between to count, due to continued breaking of NC

Almost through the tunnel

and ready to exit the other side into the light.

We signed papers in the lawyer's office today. Now it just needs to be signed off by the judge, and that should happen in the next couple of weeks.

In the end, WH backed down on a lot of things and was surprisingly reasonable about the settlement. I'm staying in our current house, and he will be moving into the new house he is buying. Assuming nothing goes wrong with the closing, he will be out of here in mid-August.

I'm feeling somewhat sad that things ended up as they did, but I know that I gave him every opportunity over the past 7 years to make things right and to get help for himself. He seems to be realizing that he has alienated both kids and my family. I actually feel sorry for him because I now understand that he really doesn't see how he has been the problem. And until he does, nothing will really get better for him.

I'm sad that the only person that I have a shared history with will be gone, and I too will be lonely. Nobody will ever fill that gap because I have no other friends who have known me as long as he has. That part of my life is over, and sometimes it feels like there isn't enough time left to make a new life, at least not one that will feel fulfilling.

I guess it's just hitting me tonight.

8 comments posted: Thursday, July 8th, 2021