6 year update
6 years ago today I discovered by wife’s affair. We went straight to hysterical bonding, fear of loss, PTSD, IC, and reconciliation. We were tied at the hip for the next 3 or 4 years. On 12/4/23, my father-in-law passed in his sleep. He was 89. My wife just completed her treatment for breast cancer. Today my wife’s brother had open heart surgery. I took my father in laws death really hard. My anger towards my wife came back. I was mad at the loss of trust. I was mad again at the loss of innocence. I want to have an affair to show my wife how it felt. On DD, my mom was in the hospital for a heart condition.
I’ve been thinking about having an affair. I don’t even know how to go about it.
I started journaling again. I started going back to Adult Children of Dysfunctional Families meetings again. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. This is what my Reconciliation looks like today.
6 comments posted: Tuesday, February 7th, 2023
