"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything." - Mark Twain Me: Living life! Him: Not my problem anymore Married 15 yrs. 1 LTA, Many EAs from 2009 - ? Dday 1 = 6/16/17 Last Dday = 1/4/18 Started loving myself 2018!

Looking Back

I don't usually look back, but my husband and I were talking recently about different denominations and how exactly they differ. He mentioned that the denomination of the minister that married me to my now Ex believes that everyone is good. It made me think about how my Ex had written that minister about his infidelity. We were married by him since he was a friend of my father.

Anyway, I re-read the letter that my ex wrote and the response from the minister. Re-reading now when I'm not in the middle of the mess, was different to say the least. My ex did his best to sound remorseful and repentent. And, honestly, I would have questioned my memory except I responded to his email with one question: How come you didn't tell the pastor about the number of times you called me Bitch or told me Fuck you just last night?

So, this morning over breakfast, I was telling my husband about it. He actually laughed out loud at my response to his email. He then said, what a fool.

I'm sharing this only because sometimes I think we like to think that it wasn't that bad or that maybe we made the wrong decision to divorce. I know I don't have any doubts about it. But it was kind of an eye opener to see just how much he was willing to put me down while pretending to be remorseful and saying that I was his world.

1 comment posted: Thursday, September 10th, 2020