Weekend Trip

BS and I had a weekend trip planned before Valentine's weekend. We were going with her brother and his wife.. They are pretty much our best friends and we travel a lot together. We don't really discuss what's going on with us with them or any of our friends. I wasn't sure how things would go because usually there is much alcohol involved. Everything was civil between BS and myself but pretty cold. We didn't speak to each other much at all. I slept on the couch in the hotel. I let the drinks sneak up on me like I usually do and I went to bed first. The next morning my BS asked if I remembered anything about the night. I didn't. She told me after she came back to the room I was talking in my sleep sounding terrified and physically fighting with something in my dreams. Later when BS told me about it, she asked if I was finally confronting my demons. I would like to think so. I have another session with the new IC on Tuesday. I am looking forward to it. When we got back into town Sunday, we went to lunch with BIL and SIL. BS wanted to go find something else to do. She said she didn't want the fun times to end. What she meant was she didn't want to go home with me. Although I understood, it broke my heart.

11 comments posted: Monday, February 22nd, 2021

Hello

Hello, I have been on the forum a while back but can't get into my old account. Our story goes back about six years. Six years that included two affairs one, one-night stand and one that lasted about seven months. I was not brave enough, to tell the truth, so I was busted. I Denied Denied Denied. I ran our finances into the ground. On D-day we had $125 in the checking account. I trickled truth through nearly everything, took two polygraphs, Failed one miserably so we got another,( Better Technician). I will tell that story if anyone wants to hear it. In the following years, I changed careers to my actual dream job. Was fired in essence because of lying. Then I lied about that to my B/S until she found my termination letter. Seems like my favorite thing to do is lye. The whole truth about everything is out now but there are still moments I seem to have an ethical lapse. When ever my B/S ask me something even trivial, I had rather say "I Didn't do it" It seems like just a reaction without thinking about it. We are going though some stuff right now and I can't really confide in the circle of friends we have. Just need a little support and feedback. All comments and questions are welcome. I'm doing my best to be an open book.

[This message edited by HorribleHubby at 4:14 PM, February 18th (Thursday)]

11 comments posted: Tuesday, February 16th, 2021