Me BW - Married 20 years Him - 2 Affairs 9 years apart DDay October-December 2019 & July 2020

Denial

I have lost hope in reconciliation, my reality has been dismissed too many times. I need to trust my gut and get off this roller coaster. I agreed to go back to counseling with the purpose of ending things peacefully and making things as easy on the kids as possible. Unlike our 2 previous MC we have tried she’s stopped him from diverting the conversation and turning it into something completely different, it’s a nice change but, the’s still trying to change it into MC and thinks I’m giving up too soon. I’m hearing a lot of blame and not enough accountability. I’m in no way perfect not going to pretend I am but, um, when trying to convince me to stay is probably not the best time to bring that up.

It’s going to be at least a few months before I can do things like move out or pay a lawyer. He told me he’s going to be in the denial and bargaining phase until I leave. He’s demonstrating this quite well. It’s making it really hard to make plans and do what I need to do while he’s moping around and trying to convince me I still love him. Maybe I do still love him I definitely care and don’t wish him harm or anything but staying sure as hell isn’t good for my mental health.

7 comments posted: Saturday, July 23rd, 2022

Brene Brown shame-addiction connection

I’ve listened to enough of her books to forget where I found it. She talks about the connection between shame and addiction and how they are so connected it’s impossible to tell which comes first. Anyone know where to find it?

5 comments posted: Saturday, March 13th, 2021

DuckDuckGo

Is there a way to check the browser history?

3 comments posted: Thursday, February 4th, 2021