The truth

Tonight my BS asked if I had been sexting the night I got caught in my EA. I tried to soften the blow on D-day and said it was heavy flirting. I told her the truth that I had. She found out from a co-worker tonight making matters worse. This sucks and I have no idea what tomorrow will be. Doesn’t know if she wants to stay or go. We’ve got two small kids but she doesnt want to be anywhere near me. At least there are no more lies.

17 comments posted: Wednesday, December 16th, 2020

The First week

Hey guys,

New WS here. D-day was last Saturday night (11/28). Without getting into too many details. I had a 2month EA 7 years ago with a co-worker and have been keeping it hidden. I lied to my SO for 6 years whenever the topic came up, and this weekend I just let it out.

These past days have been terrible and I know that there is a long, long way to go, with more pain to follow. She is wrecked, angry and cold towards me. Told me not to get my hopes up for R and she doesn't know what she is going to do yet. She doesn't want to go to MC or really even talk to me. I don't blame her, I broke her trust and made a fool out of her. She defended me when others talked about the A. I am ashamed, embarrassed, and feel horrible for the pain i've caused her.

I started IC immediately and had my first session yesterday. I've been reading as much as I can on what to do.

I am terrified of what might happen in the future, especially D. I love my family and hate that I am hurting them. It is why I kept it hidden for so long. I can't go to sleep at night and can't focus on other things to take my mind off the pain i've caused. My mind goes over and over the possible bad outcomes and analyze everything that has been said between us this week. I know this is going to take time, but right now it seems hopeless. I just wanted to let you all know and if you had any insight.

10 comments posted: Thursday, December 3rd, 2020