Road to healing
It has been 2 weeks since DDay. BS left our home for a bit but has agreed to come back home. I still see in her eyes all the pain, anger and everything in between. She doesn't speak to me nor look at me in the eyes anymore. I told her I will take everything that she will give me in exchange for nothing, I promised to her and myself that this will be first in the last time.
I am committed to do everything in my power not just to fix this, but also fixing myself in the process so that nothing like this will ever happen again. I have booked an individial session of counselling to help better understand myself and repent for what I have done. But I also need help to make her daily life bearable for her because she can't be in the same room with my anymore. I sincerely apologize to her daily without pushing her too much. Is there anything I can do to improve her daily life? Even the smallest gestures i'm willing to do and is it okay if I kept some distance for now? Because while i'm in the house, all she does is stay inside the room and I want her to be able to move freely while she's home. Right now she doesn't want to tell anyone about what happened and I am the last person she wants to talk to.
17 comments posted: Tuesday, September 14th, 2021
