BW, 30 year marriage as of D-day on 5/8/2021, Trying to reconcile but need to figure out how to get past pain and anger.
Realization that divorce may be what lies ahead
This is a depressing moment. I really would like to save our 31 year marriage but the only way that can happen is if I could believe in WH becoming a better person. In order to stay, I need a reason to believe, a reason to be able to start trusting again. That would all stem from him genuinely growing up and acting like an adult and being a better person. As remorseful and loving as he is, I don't see meaningful change in who he is. Still won't go to the Dr. and address health issues, still spends with abandon. We generally enjoy each other's company and have good times together when we don't think about practicalities like paying the bills and staying healthy for a bright future. Am I expecting too much?
13 comments posted: Monday, January 24th, 2022
