My world has been turned upside down I'm a mess

Caught my husband cheating 10 days ago. He admitted it after I confronted him. It's been going on for a few months with a co-worker. Ex co-worker now since the husband has been fired. They have been physical but I don't know how many times. I'm devastated, to say the least, he says he loves her and she loves him. She is leaving her husband she is just waiting on him to sign the divorce papers he refuses to sign. I do not know this person or her husband I just know their names and I have tried to look them up on the internet, I know she used to have a facebook but she is nowhere to be found now more than likely she deleted her social media accounts. I'm still in shock, and now I regret even confronting him, he says he doesn't know what he wants but he has feelings for her and still cares about me. He wants to know if I can forgive him and never speak of it again. I've waffled back and forth from I want a divorce now, to OMG I can't live without him. There is no communication between them, my husband doesn't have a cell phone, and he doesn't know how to operate a computer so there has been no communication for at least a week that I know of. He isn't blaming me and has answered questions but it's like pulling teeth. Sorry if this sounds like a bunch of rambling because that's all I have in my head right now.

Oh yeah married for almost 32 years. FML

113 comments posted: Wednesday, December 21st, 2022