Living with heartbreak
My husband is my world. As soon as we met I fell in love! I have never felt like this. I have always been treated bad my whole life have ptsd and have had trauma since a child. I gave him all of my heart. When our first daughter was born. I found messages on his phone when it was left at home. He was having virtual sex with someone I was heart broke!!!! I have been dealing with this for almost 11 years now. I am always breaking down and crying . He is always hiding things and looking at porn and talking to girls. He even made it to actually cheating. ISometimes I dont know what to do. All I have ever done is been treated bad and used since I was a child. My husband also verbally puts me down. I am so confused in my head. I will never give up on us. But I have no trust for him when it comes to girls. I have never told anyone about what he has put me through. This is the first time Im opening up. I have been dealing with all these feelings myself. What arent I good enough. What is this happening to me. All I do is give all my heart and love to him. I just wanted the same. I had so much faith in him. He is my best friend and the love of my life. What is wrong with me. Why arent I good enough. I am faithful on every way. I have all my faith and heart to him. I am so hurt and traumatized. All I have done is been hurt and betrayed my whole life. Why is this happening to me. When I am a great faithful person. He has talked to so many girls I cant keep count. He has even told One he loved her. I will never want anyone else. I just want him to realize what he has and to finally love me the same. I am such a wreck anyone I hear him talk to or anything I think he has something going on. I just want things to be like they were before.
12 comments posted: Sunday, June 11th, 2023
