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Hi everyone,

Sorry just need a place to rant or just to write things down. Things have been a lot better. The last time I posted a few weeks ago, I caught my WS talking to his Ap who is a work colleague that is in a different office location to him. Anyway so far all communication seems to have ended. He has promised she is no longer working in any joint projects but he has lied over the past two years that he ‘hated her’ and then I hear his very friendly conversation.

Anyway my husband has mentioned having a baby a few times. He knows that I always wanted lots but I feel very hurt and let down that he had an affair while our youngest was 6 months old. I can be very passive aggressive and the last time he brought it up he said, ‘it would be way of showing people we were strong as a couple’ I laughed and said or ‘they will think I am mad’. Anyway he got annoyed by that and was like you ‘see me as a joke as do others and you don’t have the long term interests of this family etc etc’

Anyway, I feel very torn, I always wanted lots but I feel I have as many children as I can manage particularly if I was left on my own (if he did it agin). Him cheating on me again does come into my thinking on this but I don’t know if that is a good way to live my life on a hypothetical. Anyway rant over, I don’t feel I can really talk to anyone about this

[This message edited by Lemonpie at 4:35 PM, Monday, December 2nd]

I agree with your thinking.