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To my ex,

I don't know if it is that time between the Gregorian new year and the lunar new year, but I keep thinking back to our memories. It's painful. The good ones make me sad, the sad ones make me angry. The good ones eventually lead me to the sad ones. I sometimes wish I could talk to you again.

I always press skip when Sexy Love by Neyo comes on, because I immediately think of that one time you jumped on the bed singing that song and looked at me and laughed. Then I think of that time you said you were never attracted to me.

Sometimes I think of our dog. It was hilarious that time we were getting ready to leave and I said, I think she knows! And I pointed out how she was looking at the couch longingly and then would look at us putting our shoes and coats on by the door. You had that great idea of quietly sneaking back in to catch her on the couch. She was so surprised when we came back! Then I think how you let that awful woman touch our dog while I was on rotation in Philly.

Everything is tainted, and you never made an effort to make things better. You just spiralled down your destructive path, constantly saying with each slip, I just don't see how I can go back! You never tried, so how could you know?

I get the feeling that something is up with you, something has not gone your way.

I will admit that it makes me smile, just a bit.

I’m tired of all this.

It’s somhard to not test my best friend for 24 years.

But you have shown that all your addictive tendencies are really you.

I am thankful for our two amazing kids. They love me. They have zero respect for you. You are a loser. A failure as a father and as a husband.

I would have tried to make things work, but you have already done the damage. It’s time for me to live my life again.

Good luck living in your moms basement.

You sorry piece of shit. DD calls you to say goodnight, and you are high as a fucking kite. You are watching the Superbowl, but don't know who's winning. You are slurring your speech. Going off on tangents and asking questions that make no sense. DD was totally confused.

Didn't seem like alcohol. Didn't seem like weed. Seemed a lot to me like pills/opioids. The long pauses. Forgetting you were in a conversation, much less one with your 9yo daughter. The bizarre statements...

I can't believe you can still top yourself after all you've done.

By the way, your head looks like it's about to explode.

You disordered chaotic fool. Go away. I don't care where you go. Just go away. You are so much sicker in the head than I ever thought possible.

Just fucking go. Away.

You were my best friend, I told you everything for 13 years I talked to you every day and I never went to bed without telling you I love you, how can you just walk away to be with her ? Love me one day and the next tell me you never want to talk to me again? Block me from everything and even go as far as a restraining order? How is it possible to to just leave and never look back? And then marry her as soon as our divorce is final? I just don’t understand, you just moved on so quickly and dont even care about me at all? How could you?

Our Daughter is getting married Saturday and you are not invited!

Since you decided to throw away your family and you didn't want any contact with your daughter and Grandsons, this is what you get.

Hope you and your GF have a nice weekend, I will have a great weekend!

Well, well, well, now isnt this an interesting development. Have you really f-ed up this badly again?

Just one more thing i hope your children never find out.

WTF?

A year out, and you send me a "Happy Valentines" email???

5 months since I spoke or seen you, and you send me this crap??

Just crawl back under your rock, or your latest victim or boy toy and leave me alone!

H, I woke up in the middle of the night and went pain shopping, looking at pics of OW. She's not that pretty, but it kills me that you preferred her over me for a period of time.

I am having a hard time with negative feelings, massive sadness at what unfixable things you have done. We hugged the other day and I felt simultaneously comforted and repulsed. You are tainted by her.

I am doing my best to take care of myself. You have the kids this weekend, and I have a valentines date! (Its with my girl friend, but you don't need to know that). When you asked about my plans, I just smiled and said nothing. Your turn to sit home with the kids and stew about MY activities (mine are harmless, though).

I bought myself luxurious sheets and pillows, and slept decadently in our king size bed. I woke up, worked out, drank water, made a healthy breakfast. I am going to heal from this, and you have to live with what you have done.

So, add one more DDay to the list. From a long forgotten sheet of paper. Oh, how it tattled on your misdeeds. Funny, I didn’t get mad or sad this time, no sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Instead, I felt vindicated. Suspicious for so long, gaslighted and made out to be crazy, but was unknowingly right.

Jerk.

In other news... don’t change things last minute. It’s unbelievably rude, and messes with an established routine or things going on during my non-custodial time. I have a life to you know- I’m not sitting at home mourning our marriage or being “a sad, lonely single woman.” I have places to go, people to see & things to do. Just because you’re not my primary focus anymore, doesn’t mean I have nothing else to do.

So you have a new girlfriend and you want her to meet our son?. Um no. D was final in July and I know I have no right to tell you who you can introduce him to, it seems like it’s too soon after your infidelity. Also how stupid is she? I guess as a corporate VP, you can move on pretty quick. A women with three kids would love your cash, but she will have to put up with your nonsense.I guess you need her to fill my void. You’re not my problem anymore, so there is a bright side.

My integrity is intact yours is not. In case you forgot - Integrity is doing the right thing even when no one is watching. Lol not you.

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Those poor people in R. Ignoring red flags, struggling with their waywards, multiple d days, false Rs....phew! I am glad I made it out ok on the other side.

You lied to my face this morning. And something in me just knew. That’s the last time.

Freeing myself from the shit storm you are. You don’t even deserve the ‘it’s over’ conversation. You will work it out, or move on. Because that’s what you do.

No longer a chump.

Is that the Karma bus I hear on it's consequences route to nowhere??

You Pri**. You stole from me!!!

I hope your new girlfriend enjoys the diamonds from my grandmothers ring. I hope they are cursed for you- or the hit you buy with them sees you arrested.

May the karma bus catch up quick.

Our youngest, in an effort to free herself completely of you, has gotten her own health insurance. A big step for a 23 year old who easily could have stayed on the judge ordered insurance paid by you another 3 years.

I suggested that she make sure however she lets you know that it be in writing, documentation and all. She emailed you, told you that she has her own health insurance and you could cancel her policy.

And you responded with just 'thank you'. Not, "that's great", "how are you", "I miss you", "what's new". Nothing.

Once again, it's all about you. The victim in your affair, our divorce and your children not having a relationship with you.

And you wonder why?

Let me remind you of your recent history with your kids.

Your only son has not spoken to you in three years, you werent invited to his wedding,

Your oldest daughter hasnt spoken to you in two years, since you kicked her out of her home. She has gotten her PhD.

Your youngest hasnt spoken to you in over a year and has one other financial tie with you. When she can afford it, she will take care of that too.

Do you ever look in the mirror and really ask WHY?

What did you do to so severely affect these relationships? What words do they need to hear from you?

What actions can you take to show them you care and are not blaming them?

Get your head out of your ass, or maybe AP's ass, and be a father.

For the love of God, please move on with your life.

I'm invisible to you. I don't want you to even acknowledge me. Ever. I'm long long gone. And I can't stand the idea of you, much less the sight of you.

You're gross.

Holy shit you were such a complete waste of time and money.

How are those real-world consequences going for you buddy boy? Still putting your head in the sand I hear. That little move worked so wonderfully for you before didn't it?

I really hope you do have to pay the piper finally.

I actually kind of hoped for the little innocents you dragged into your shit show of destruction that you would get a least some kind of healthy. Shame on you.

Always remember you deserve everything that happens to you. Man, you are such a fucking loser.

You are a ducking twat