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I feel like lately I’ve been reading posts here of people who are well beyond the 2-5 year mark, but they don’t appear to be healed. Obviously, there will be some exceptions to this, but I’m curious why some people don’t "progress" years after the initial discovery? I am in no way discrediting how one individually processes the trauma of infidelity, but I’m curious why there seems to be very minimal progress done to "get out" of infidelity. Reading some of these more recent posts makes me so sad that people literally waste their lives stuck because of someone else’s ignorance and destructive choices.

[This message edited by Heartbrokenwife23 at 8:44 PM, Monday, December 2nd]

Oversimplified - you can be healed however the scar tissue can hurt like a MoFo at times and Phantom Pain can be a Bitch.

I am years out, healed and personally thriving. BUT...scar tissue can pull and tug at unexpected times. Phantom Pain is a thing as well.

Being healed is not necessarily synonymous with being pain free all the time. And there is no timeline for trauma.

Took me much longer than 5 years to heal.

My WH did everything right except for the TT, dumped AP, complete transparency, halted most of his travel, accountable for his whereabouts, found a new job....but I ended up getting a severe case of PTSD, not because of the A, but because many times he would not answer a question directly, and the frustration I felt sent me deep into the rabbit hole. I think childhood trauma played a role having lost my biological mother at 2.5 and growing up with an alcoholic father.

Honestly, I am 19 years out, and probably twice a year I still have a nightmare about the OW/WH. Maybe once a year, I still want to slap the sh*t out of my WH if I really think about the cost to me, our marriage, our family, his job, and so many other aspects of our lives.

FYI, I was out of infidelity within hours of discovery, my WH dumped OW like a hot potato. She lived on the opposite coast so perhaps that's why it was a bit easier because there was no way in hell I would have ever been comfortable with my WH traveling to her site again, so there was really no opportunity to continue the A. Also, my WH understood that it was either my way or the highway. I refused to be disrespected again, and if there was ever any further communication between them, his belongings would have been out the door.

In terms of "why don't people event get to the starting line of their healing journey?" the short answer is that many people in abusive relationships don't do anything about it. It's hard to do something about it. It takes time and effort. It takes bravery. It's most often not in a person's economic interest to separate. In the case where you have kids, infidelity doesn't count in establishing a pattern of abuse in getting custody, so you don't get to cut them out of your life either way, you still have to coparent. This gets weighed against staying in the relationship, and (as we often say around here) if you are willing to lose the marriage, you won't be able to R. The abuser has the leverage if they know you won't leave, and they will not stop as long as they have that leverage.

Also, when there is TT or a 2nd DDAY (or 3rd…), the clock goes back to zero. And as Chaos said, healed is like broken leg. All healed but when it’s rainy, you get an ache there. And that is likely for the rest of your life.

I took about 4-5 years from the final DDAY. I was MUCH better in years 2 and 3, but to really get to "indifferent" took a little longer.

It’s not a rule as such but more like a recognized timeframe for certain progress.

I think the two-year theory is found in a lot of trauma instances.
It’s said that if you lose a spouse it takes about 2 years before that grief isn’t controlling your sleep, you aren’t feeling guilty at not feeling sad, you are OK with going to dinner with friends and not focusing on the loss... Does not mean you are happy or content with the loss – more than you accepted it.
Same is said if you lose a child. Takes about two years before you see any purpose in drawing a breath.
Same with being fired unexpectedly. Takes two years before you lose a dread for the end-of-month fear of being let go from your new job.
Same with divorce... A large (but old by now) survey indicated that at the 12 month mark a majority regretted the divorce and/or said the grievances could have been handled without a divorce. Same group asked at the 18 month mark (close to 2 years...) stated that they were extremely happy with their decision.

I think the 2 year mark is more of a mark where we might have healed ourselves to a point where we can be clearer on what to do next.

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I used to think I did the "perfect" relationship-ending after walking in on her having sex with OM. Left our apartment and NEVER entered it again (my bro got my stuff – still miss my 80’s LP’s...), and I guess we spent less than 20 hours together or talking after that. It took me about 6 months before I realized I would make it, and at about the 18 month mark I woke up and had to recall why I was supposed to feel sad... By my 2 year mark I was dating and felt healthy and normal.
Only... about 17 years after d-day – in my present marriage – I had issues that were directly related to the infidelity I experienced. I didn’t realize I had them and thought they were more related to other tough experiences I had. In other words – I "healed" about 17 years after d-day...

From my experience, I healed in that timeframe, but because I divorced. I don’t think I would have healed in that timeframe if I stayed, but it had more to do with my partner than my ability to heal. A bad partner not doing their part or leaving room for doubt can hinder the process. Actually, it will hinder the process. With that said, everything could be going perfectly right and you still might not heal because deep down, it was a dealbreaker. Basically, there’s no one-size-fits-all, and if you are not healing in that time., Maybe look at all of the factors, including whether you should or should not stay. Some people do heal just fine in that time. If not, maybe take a look around and decide or reevaluate whether it is right for you to stay or you would be better off not staying.

Lots of reasons:

Sometimes big trauma can reintroduce past trauma that has not been dealt with.

We all have different access to different resources. Sometimes that’s due to financial reasons, sometimes it’s a misunderstanding of what therapy is. There is stigma with needing help with coping and dealing with emotions, but it’s an injury as valid as a physical injury.

I think the entire first year is recovery. And as others have pointed out, you can be healed and still have things come up. Typically, the pain will lessen over that 2-5 year period.

Codependency.

Fear of change.

Staying because of obligations.

Not realizing the affair is trauma.

Blaming themselves

It’s all different.

I could go on.

I know where the question comes from though. Will I ever heal? Am I wasting my time? Is this even possible? All normal feelings and questions for those who find themselves living in the difficulties that come with uncertainty.

The best way to combat that is to keep working on finding that certainty in yourself. Work on making your life yours and portable from him.

I've thought about this same question and feel like lately I've noticed an increase in posts about long timers with DD2 after years and years and/or BWs/BHs deciding to go for D after years due to other reasons. I believe it might be my own confirmation bias partly. I have just passed the 2 year mark and so now I'm starting to notice more posters past that 'magic' 2 year mark that are not doing so well, while I previously perhaps more focused on posters in earlier days?

Also, as with most other forums online for support, I believe those who are doing the best are not here they are out there living their lives with less focus on infidelity. There are exceptions obviously, long timers that are here to support and help out even though they are themselves doing great by now (thank god for them!). But I do believe that with any support forum, if you compare those that have searched for and find themselves on forums looking for support for what ever it may be, are doing worse, than the average person having gone through that same issue.
What I mean is, statistically we know infidelity is rampant, unfortunately. Out of all those that have had a DD, probably not those doing best with recovery are here looking for support after years and years, they have moved on from it. They may have rug swept, or D, or be in R, but either way they have moved on. Those of us still here looking for support and comfort after years are probably those in a less good place. So my thought is that this forums (as any other suport forum for anything) posters are probably not a fair cross section of what the same group of people look like in general. Does that make sense?

I have a medical affliction that I've been on a support forum for for more than 10 years now. It's a fairly common affliction, about 30-40% of the adult population suffer from it at some point, however it is chronic and can be very severe. However, looking at how badly people with that affliction seem to be doing when reading the posts, I know you get a very grim picture of what life with that affliction is. Most posters are struggling, and that's why they are posting. I'd venture 99% of people who suffer with that affliction do better than most posters on that forum, and just get on with life despite it. It's the people struggling to cope with it that are on the forum mainly. I know this because IRL I know many with that same affliction that have never felt the need to even look for support about it, online or otherwise.

Conceptually, it took me a while to understand my own role in my healing.

And I always took the 2-5 years to heal as more of a guideline than a rule.

I have to add, when I first read that upon arrival, I didn’t think there was any way I could handle the level of pain for a few months, much less a few years.

For me, it was about year three when I got my swagger back, understood my agency and how much power I actually had to choose my path forward.

I don’t mean choosing happiness everyday, or some of the other internet bumper stickers. Happy is only part of the emotional spectrum, and I embrace the entire range of feelings every day.

However, I did learn I can choose my direction, my leaning and then adjust as needed.

I start every single day by choosing my path and hold a level of gratitude for a new day.

This is from someone who previously lived by the mantra, life sucks, then you die. I was awesome at misery — world class. Resentment free is a much better place to kick off each day.

Anger is still healthy, just in smaller doses. Sadness is a part of the deal, I process that and move on to the next moment.

But I get how people get stuck, I was for a long time.